The last few days were incredibly stressful thank to my own overworking mind. I heard from Jason yesterday though and I'm feeling a little less stressed. But I' m still nervous about the LEEP next Wednesday. In the meantime I've been doing wedding research and planning.
Updates on all that to come.
Saturday, July 11, 2009
Wednesday, July 08, 2009
Massive Updates
Leave was fantastic. But it's over now and Jason is back in Korea for the remainder of the year.
Boooooooooo!
Right now I'm dealing with a few stressors. Work (which really isn't that stressful just lots to do), THESIS writing which takes a bulk of my free time in research and writing, planning a wedding with my fiance thousands of miles away - but the past 1 1/2 months I've been dealing with another issue which I've been poo-poohing until yesterday.
I had an abnormal pap at the end of May. The day after Jason went back to Korea I had a biopsy. Yesterday I got the biopsy results...and I quote..."severe cellular changes."
Damn.
Next week I go in for what's called a LEEP . Basically it's like if you have pre-cancerous skin cells and the doctor burns them off instead in this case it's in a spot you'd really rather not have them.
What sucks the most about all of this, though...is that Jason is miles and miles away and can't hold my hand and be with me through all this craziness. It's just part of the mil-spouse-to-be (and eventually mil-spouse) lifestyle. I know hundreds of women have done it before me so that makes it easier in a way - but that doesn't mean I have to like all of it.
Boooooooooo!
Right now I'm dealing with a few stressors. Work (which really isn't that stressful just lots to do), THESIS writing which takes a bulk of my free time in research and writing, planning a wedding with my fiance thousands of miles away - but the past 1 1/2 months I've been dealing with another issue which I've been poo-poohing until yesterday.
I had an abnormal pap at the end of May. The day after Jason went back to Korea I had a biopsy. Yesterday I got the biopsy results...and I quote..."severe cellular changes."
Damn.
Next week I go in for what's called a LEEP . Basically it's like if you have pre-cancerous skin cells and the doctor burns them off instead in this case it's in a spot you'd really rather not have them.
What sucks the most about all of this, though...is that Jason is miles and miles away and can't hold my hand and be with me through all this craziness. It's just part of the mil-spouse-to-be (and eventually mil-spouse) lifestyle. I know hundreds of women have done it before me so that makes it easier in a way - but that doesn't mean I have to like all of it.
Tuesday, June 02, 2009
Butterflies
Jason will be arriving home for leave very, very soon. My stomach has been doing anticipatory flip-flops all morning.
For those of you who know I'm crazy but didn't have proof...here it is...I actually vacuumed my mattress this morning. I've made salsa, washed strawberries, ran for an hour and now I'm sitting here waiting....waiting...waiting.
In a little while I'll get ready, iron my cute shirt, put on my cute sandals and head with a spring in my step to get the boy. I can't wait to see him smile.
For those of you who know I'm crazy but didn't have proof...here it is...I actually vacuumed my mattress this morning. I've made salsa, washed strawberries, ran for an hour and now I'm sitting here waiting....waiting...waiting.
In a little while I'll get ready, iron my cute shirt, put on my cute sandals and head with a spring in my step to get the boy. I can't wait to see him smile.
Monday, June 01, 2009
And I quote...
I spoke to Jason yesterday - after he'd finished his birthday partying with the boys at Kunsan. He'll be home in just over 24 hours for leave and if you've read my previous post I was busy super-duper cleaning the apartment yesterday for his homecoming.
WARNING THE FOLLOWING MAY INDUCE BLUSHING!!!
His reaction....and I quote: "I don't care about the cleaning I just want you naked...."
Yeah. What a boy.
Today - I'm at work - trying my hardest to focus. Thankfully I have a meeting, which I called on grant opportunities for the Division of Student Affairs which will keep me busy for a while but the day before the return is always crazy hard. My attention span is short today...SQUIRREL!
It's even hard to write coherently.
So I push on - try to remain on task and look forward to making some salsa and chilling out tonight.
WARNING THE FOLLOWING MAY INDUCE BLUSHING!!!
His reaction....and I quote: "I don't care about the cleaning I just want you naked...."
Yeah. What a boy.
Today - I'm at work - trying my hardest to focus. Thankfully I have a meeting, which I called on grant opportunities for the Division of Student Affairs which will keep me busy for a while but the day before the return is always crazy hard. My attention span is short today...SQUIRREL!
It's even hard to write coherently.
So I push on - try to remain on task and look forward to making some salsa and chilling out tonight.
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